Doubting Jessica

Okay, so I just want to vent. It seems like its been something Im really good at. But I need to get this out. I have been through the thick and thin in life to know that God is there for us. To know His plan is not our own. I have studied scripture after scripture and prayed every prayer for miracles. And yet I still have the inclination to shout out, "Hello, God, are you listening?" Ok, Jonny still doesn't have a permanent job. The one he has barely pays, and its in Fresno. So he could totally work at McDonalds right now and get more money.

My heart goes out to him because he is so talented and SMART. But because he doesn't have a degree or trade, it makes it difficult to find a decent job. I know men have this pride thing and want to support their family financially, so this has got to be hitting him hard. Everyone our age has started buying houses and investing in the future, and we can't even pay our bills on time. Its quite embarrassing so please know that I am being extremely transparent.

Seriously, I know God is working in our lives. And I know that he has a plan especially for Jonny. Its just been hard because this year has brought many tears of pain. (some for joy) Please say a prayer. Please know we are forever grateful for the many blessings we have and because of family and friends we have gotten through some rough storms. We just want God's favor in our lives. Thanks