Thoughts

Okay, so Im going to be very indirect in this blog because I don't want to give away too much detail just yet. Jon and I have had a proposition brought forth to us and we have mixed emotions. Mainly this proposition would be beneficial to our family right now and give us a chance to have a chance to be free from some things. Anyways, we need to make this decision fairly quickly and its scary. We've made good decisions and bad decisions in life and some have haunted us and some have helped us. We need to pray and seek God's wisdom. So please pray and one day I can share more. Pray that we are open to all options and the God will pave the path before us.

A Challenge Question

My pastor's wife asked my a question through my comment page regarding my last blog. She asked, "What are you learning? How have you felt you've grown?" Well, I was about to comment back in answering those questions but I realized I didn't know the answers. So I laid in bed last night thinking and thinking and praying.....and began to realize something.

Do you remember the book, "Are you there God, its Me Margaret?" I remember so well reading that book in preparation for becoming a young lady....if you know what I mean? In the book, the character was so open and blunt in her quest to find her true self, talking to God as if you were talking to a friend. I sometimes find myself talking to God like I talk to my friends or my husband. Is it wrong? Not really, however, I think just like people around us, we forget to honor them in our words, actions, etc. For instance, I love to pray because I know I can vent to God and he'll send peace and I can get it off my chest. But I am guilty of not praising him enough and falling deeper into his presence, almost forgetting that God is majestic and deserves more glory and honor than just an ordinary friend.

So, this revelation has not solved our problems. But it has made me realize that I am complacent at times when I need to be in God's word more each day and in prayer giving more attention to God and what he has done in my life. It has made me realize that when I feel like I've prayed all the prayers and read all the "encouraging" scriptures, that I need to look harder for what God is teaching me and telling me. Thanks Rhonda for your questions of wisdom.

Doubting Jessica

Okay, so I just want to vent. It seems like its been something Im really good at. But I need to get this out. I have been through the thick and thin in life to know that God is there for us. To know His plan is not our own. I have studied scripture after scripture and prayed every prayer for miracles. And yet I still have the inclination to shout out, "Hello, God, are you listening?" Ok, Jonny still doesn't have a permanent job. The one he has barely pays, and its in Fresno. So he could totally work at McDonalds right now and get more money.

My heart goes out to him because he is so talented and SMART. But because he doesn't have a degree or trade, it makes it difficult to find a decent job. I know men have this pride thing and want to support their family financially, so this has got to be hitting him hard. Everyone our age has started buying houses and investing in the future, and we can't even pay our bills on time. Its quite embarrassing so please know that I am being extremely transparent.

Seriously, I know God is working in our lives. And I know that he has a plan especially for Jonny. Its just been hard because this year has brought many tears of pain. (some for joy) Please say a prayer. Please know we are forever grateful for the many blessings we have and because of family and friends we have gotten through some rough storms. We just want God's favor in our lives. Thanks

The Wedding Has Come and Gone....Calgon Take Me Away

The wedding was here and now its gone. We had a lot of fun planning and enjoying being all dressed up! Thanks to our good friends that helped with the wedding and NATHAN...Charisse Hastings, Linda Pannett, and The Cagles. We couldn't have done it without you! And the reception was fun. I had so much fun dancing with my two left feet. And my grandpa who is 76 years old and my grandma were DANCING! And I don't mean in the spirit! And of course my hot hubby danced with me! Jennae and Doug are truly happy and I am so blessed to have been a part of it. I actually gained a new family out of it too because Doug's family has treated us like their own! More pictures to come and thanks to those who were able to make it. I truly appreciate it.
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